Unknowing leads to knowing

I am in the process of pulling together my research project. I found I have re drafted my ideas several times, and even re-wrote my proposal inquiry three times, to the point I am now feeling clearer on what my project is investigating and why those questions/values I have posed are of significance in my practice.

It's been a while since I spontaneously explored in a practical sense. As teachers, we plan, adapt and inspire but we always have our outcomes in our mind of what we achieve. I can say, the thought of being in the studio again, to rediscover my own ideas and personal identity of my current knowledge is exciting. Sometimes, we forget the sole purpose of dance, which is to carry us away into new realms we didn't know existed. In fact, it didn't matter if it diverged away from our sole purpose, because there is some intrinsic meaning behind why that happened.

I was encouraged, on one of the skype's to read Thinking in movement by Maxine Sheets-Johnson, and although I have read snippets along with other research, it still amazes me when people write how they reached their thoughts or outcomes. One resonating thought stood out to me in the article "Whatever the framework of rules which act as constraints upon movement, the aim of the dancer is to form movement extemporaneously. It is to dance this evenings dance, whatever it might turn out to be; no more than anyone else does the dancer know what this evenings dance will be until it has in fact been created". It made me think, how did she know that? Was it through experience, did she have to look deeply into a situation or feeling? Was it pure coincidence, this thought process happened? Would this have happened if she didn't use improvisation? The one thing that was important was she went through a process of self discovery, and she lost herself within the movement. She couldn't find meaning holistically and intrinsically until she arrived in a state of comfort-ability and clarity

Our thoughts don't always have to be structured, or else how do we actually lose our self within the moment. I aim to get through most of this article by the end of the week! 

Sheets-Johnson, M., 1981 https://www.jstor.org/stable/430239?seq=1