Learning to accept a winding road

After tonight's Module One discussion, I have been left with some thought provoking questions...
Why do I look for specificity?
If I reflected in an interlinking process would I be able to compartmentalise my ideas clearly?
Why have I decided prior to this discussion such broad ideas specifically around a job title?

Of course, looking at our CV's are an important part of identifying my prior learning, but sometimes we can address this as specific job ideas, rather than looking deeper into how the experiences associated with the job title have become significant to my personal practice. I think the key point for me is the word personal. As a teacher often I think more about how my decisions within the classroom impart knowledge and instil retention, rather than how my learning as a professional can be transferred into a very personal learning experience for my learners.

After thinking about my identity as a professional, I always thought as myself as the TEACHER. When I look at the definition of teacher, the key words are very contrasting instruct and consider others feelings and ideas. This is a topic that was discussed within the module one focus skype, and it was interesting to see how many people resonated with the reflection of emotional response. I am aware instruction is an old age definition, and the learning experience is very different in today's context, but when asking students to take independent scholarship in their inquiry to personal learning, I always think well how do I do that? How do I teach a process, that is very different for all?

Then I remember, my identity is much broader, I am a learner all of the time which means...

• vulnerability
• comfort with ambiguity
• reflection
• mindfulness
• ability to step out of the learning process and evaluate what is happening and why?
• the ability to question and respond to your own thoughts, deep in conversation with yourself
• the ability to discuss and listen to others to compartmentalise my ideas and use these as inspiration.

I decided to structure my ideas as following, I am still unsure of whether my ideas will change but this is a process I am trying to accept, that change just means another door has opened.

AOL 1: How do I see myself as a professional- an exploration of identity
AOL 2: Teacher training: why this doesn't define me?
AOL 3: The Learner: perspectives of learning from others to explore my own identity
AOL 4: Dancer: the barrier or risk and surrounding myself in safety and comfort
AOL 5: Facilitator: How understanding my own thinking process has enabled for creative facilitation?

I would like to now reflect each week within each area of learning, so I can better understand my own experiences and as Adesola was discussing 'what makes my cupboard personal to me?
What I would like to think about is to stop rushing my thinking process and thinking about how my reflections and conclusions are going to be embedded into my practice in the future.
I will never be able to look into this without exploring the building blocks first, a house is not created without the foundations and structure, and it is okay to take the time to learn about yourself to use clarity to move forward in a productive, creative sense and from a state of personal realism and intent.

Look forward to reading others responses about your thoughts and how the session has helped you to find clarity.